Goddamn this scarf why the hell did I take on such a big project

But it's getting done! And I know Uncle Rob will love having a hand-knit Gryffindor scarf, so it'll be worth it in the end. ^^

Tonight was a relaxing night overall though |D Dinner and tree-trimming over at Grandma and Grandpa's (which caused me to miss Bri's party, unfortunately...) and after I got home, I rewatched "The Devil and Daniel Webster" because that's just a damn good movie. It's one of the few "old" movies I actually like. Daniel Webster is a gentleman badass (which, while not quite historically accurate, is pretty awesome) and reminds me of my grandpa (a good thing). I also knit my fingers raw during the entire thing. At least I got a lot done on my scarf >_>'' My poor left index finger...

Speaking of knitting, I'm still baffled by how I somehow taught myself to knit mirrored. Obviously it's because I'm a lefty, but still, I don't remember ever consciously switching over! How odd.

OMIGOD ALSO

DRAGON AGE

DRAGON AGE

THIS MIGHT JUST BE MY NEW MOST FAVORITE GAME EVER

( ramble ramble videogames ramble )

tl;dr this game was pretty much tailor-made for me and I fucking love it. 8D And, like any good Bioware adventure game, there are romanceeees. Hell-o, mister flirty bisexual elf assassin. How are you today? <3

The only problem? It makes me aware of the fact that my graphics card is, somehow, already outdated. XD''' It lags a bit, but not enough to really affect my gaming experience.

ALRIGHT I'LL STOP RAMBLING ABOUT VIDEO GAMES NOW

In fact, I'll go play the thing instead of rambling on about it. Bye!

Hey.

Guys.

Seriously. I love you all.

But I needs me some space for a while.

No get-togethers for Lissa until AFTER Christmas, okay? :< I'm making a lot of presents this year and I really don't have time to balance family, present-making, Lissa-time, AND friends.

Okay? We cool? We cool.

<3

Home again - for nearly a month!! :D Happy happy. I have a lot of Christmas crafting to do, but otherwise everything's hunky-dory and I'm grateful for the downtime. X3 Speaking of crafting... I wonder what this is. HMMMM.

...I swear I actually had something to say but I'm drawing a total blank-- oh, DOLLS!!!

( Cut for doll/story talk. )

OH YEAH ALSO

MY "TRYING HUMAN" CHRISTMAS CARD ARRIVED

WITH A HAND-DRAWN IMAGE OF LONGUS INSIDE

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY 8D 8D 8D

Annnd I think that's it. Much love!!

For those who have requested it, my wish list:


Books! :)
Covet: A Novel of the Fallen Angels by J. R. Ward
A Mermaid's Ransom by Joey W. Hill
Hidden Currents by Christine Feehan
Bold colored nail polishes (none by Ice, please)
MDX
Coffee of any sort: I have access to coffee makers now!
Cans of Starbucks Double-Shot Whatshimachallits
Burned anything! CD, DVDs, Ebooks, Comics, Pictures... I trust your judgment!


<3 Later!

I HAVE A NEW ROOMMATE

ONE I ACTUALLY TALK TO

IT'S PRETTY NICE TBH

:D

So yep. Got to move in early with Kayla - our room is still kind of a trainwreck (particularly on my side, ahaha) but it's getting there! And I have my old computer setup back with my bed up against my computer. <3 I have to keep my keyboard on my bed, but at least I have my bed for a chair again instead of those uncomfortable little wooden numbers!!

I've completed three of my four finals (four of five if you count juries) - only one more, and it's the hardest one: psychology. Thankfully it's still gonna be a pretty tame one. X3 My Creativity class final wasn't bad, and I got back some reviews on my project. One of them was kind of irrelevant:
"She has long hair. She keeps it very well."
Nnnnot sure what that has to with a dancing zombie, but thank you, person! That made my day. XD

So yes. I'm pretty tired right now, but that's okay. I'm happy. ^^

Heheh, sweeee-- wait, I don't want to live for a long time. D: Oh no!!

Lolol. Anyway, my Christmas list! This is gonna probably be a rather light Christmas on my end - expect a lot of homemade gifts and such from me, but you'll all get something, don't you worry. XP And I don't expect much in return because I know you guys care.

That being said, you've demanded a list and I shall give you one:

( The LIST. O: )

So there's my suggestions. :D Love you all and I can't wait to see you during break!!!!

Man, sad final is sad. Especially because we ended Human Body with theories on why people die. Seriously.
People die from finals everyone knows that... >_>
But anyways.
Christmas is coming around but I'm not overly excited about it this year. Our family isn't doing Christmas this year because Alan isn't home and we don't really have a lot of extra time/money with my Dad looking for a new job. It was a family decision. And honestly, it's just not Christmas without Alan bossing all of us on how the tree is supposed to be decorated, lol. I'm not telling you all this because I want you to feel shitty about it or "pity" me or something, I just don't want anyone to get me anything since all I got for you all this year are cherry candy canes O: Instead of the gift giving thing our family is doing community service because really Christmas is about being with your family and helping other people, not the gifts *sounds like a Christmas special*. So yeah, just letting you all know.
TLDR: If you want to get me anything give me a hug. It's been a long semester. Save you money and do something fun with your family instead or spend it on yourself, you all deserve it :)

Love you guys and be home soon.

So I leave for Kansas tomorrow. My flight is at 12:15, so I should be home and bored by dinner time. I have such mixed feelings about leaving. I love you all and can't wait to hang out and have fun. But then I have parents.

There is a vague rumor of going to Florida for a week, but assuming that doesn't happen... not my favorite way to spend a month.

Then my friend group here is alternatively making me really happy and really unhappy.

And Alex just walked it, so I will post more here later!

I have a newfound love: Porangaba tea. |D

It's supposed to be a weight-loss aid, but I got a box of it as a gift from Grandpa (who, in turn, got it as a freebie in something from work). And it's actually really good, especially for an herbal tea! I had to drink it with sugar at first, but now I can drink it straight.

I do have to be a little careful, though. Its weight loss benefits come from its apparent ability to suppress one's appetite, and obviously I'm small enough already. So I try to drink it sparingly. But it is quite good, and I'm currently drinking it ghetto-style out of a plastic Halloween cup. *sips happily*

...And that's really the most interesting thing I have to talk about right now. X3 I'm taking it easy before finals start, and even then, my finals don't REALLY start until Tuesday. Monday is my Science, Society, and Environment final debate thing in which I have to make a case for clean coal being a good thing. Surprisingly enough, it's not that hard a case to argue - most of it comes down to money issues. Going green is good, for certain, but it's EXPENSIVE. Clean coal is a technology we already have. As long as we keep taking steps towards eventually being COMPLETELY green, clean coal will see us through at a fraction of the cost.

Yeah, I'm ready for the debate. XP Tuesday is my Psychology final, which might be tricky. Wednesday is my College Writing final (and he'll be bringing donuts, hooray!!). Thursday is my fucking Creativity and the Arts final... and then I go home!! Woohoo!!!

ALSO!!!!! Next semester, Esther will no longer be my roommate. FUCK YEAAAAHHHHH. Instead I'm moving out - right across the hall, in fact - and Kayla will be my new roommate. :D Schweeeet. Aww man I can't waaaiiit~

Other than that... uh... I really want moneys for a new dollie. X3 IF ANY OF YOU WANT TO JUST GIVE ME CASH FOR CHRISTMAS, I AM TOTALLY DOWN WITH THAT. O: TOTALLY. Lol. Speaking of which, I'll try and come up with a list here sometime soon.

Laters~

JURY'S OVER!!!!

I SUCKED!!! BUT AT LEAST IT'S OVER!!!! :D'''

Lolol. Thank goodness.

Immediately afterwards, I was volunteered to ferry out Kayla and Wendey to Wichita. :/ That ended up working out okay, though - they had fun SCA times and I got to browse Barnes and Noble. Bookstoooore |D

For my trouble - and for writing another paper for Kayla - I got this little gem:



Hell yeeeeaaahhh. :D :D :D Been wanting that for a while. It's apparently the end-all-be-all book on the Sicilian Mafia (AKA the "original" Mafia). In fact, it was recommended to me by the author of this review of a bad Mafia-based webcomic, and she knows her shit. I asked her in a private message for some tips on where to look for the "right" information on the Mafia, and she was very generous in pointing me in the right direction. That was very cool. She wins internets. ("La Cosa Nostra" is grammatically incorrect, you swine! D:< )

I did promise a money-back guarantee on that book if I don't get Kayla a good grade, though. XD If the paper I write her doesn't make the cut, I'll do something to make it up to her. I honor my deals.

So yep. Today was very tiring and I'm glad it's over. But the Wichita excursion was fun, and oh yeah JURY'S OVER DID I MENTION THAT? CELEBRATION TIIIME~

Night! ^^

Man, finals... finals I can deal with. Finals are nothing. Nothing, I tell you! Not compared to jury.

Juries are all about your own talent, and I have none. I am NOT prepared for this on any level. I'm kind of repeating my excuses ad infinitum at this point - "I'm not a music major so it doesn't matter", "why should those stuck-up pricks care if I can play viola well or not" (though they're actually quite nice people, not pricks), "I shouldn't care this much", etc. etc.

Thing is... well, I HATE to feel humiliated, and I feel humiliated pretty damn easily. Of course it's not going to matter if I can play viola well or not; I'm not a music student of any sort and I doubt this class affects my GPA. But the thought of being embarrassed in front of anyone, even if it's only four people I'll probably never see again, is almost too much for me. And I know I'm not gonna do well. I even had to cut my practice earlier today short because the professional musician guy I mentioned a couple journals ago came down to practice too. He even stopped by to say "hi" and wish me well on the juries. Then I heard him play in the next room... and that was it. I couldn't take it anymore. I wasn't jealous, I just felt very... inadequate. I was squeaking out "Ode To Joy" and missing every other note while he was performing flawlessly. It was just a major feeling of "why do I even bother" coupled with the feeling of being subconsciously judged. You can hear others through those walls, and I was acutely aware of the fact that he could possibly hear every mistake I was making. ;___; Ugh ugh ugh.

So I left. Jury's in three hours. These are gonna be the longest three hours of my life.

But at least then it'll all be over... Man, I can't even be happy about it. I just want it to be over already. DX

Ooorgh, I don't feel so good. @__@ Not bad enough to be "sick," but... ooorgh.

My neck and upper back are really sore for some reason. I started noticing it a day or two ago, but now it's REALLY noticeable. I didn't do anything to aggravate them, or at least nothing out of my normal routine. The only thing I can think of is that I slept on them funny. :< At least I'll be home on a nice, soft mattress soon instead of this flimsy little pad-thing I'm on now. My eyes are also sore for some reason. I'd say I've been sitting at the computer too much, but that's all I've EVER done. Why would I start hurting now? ;^;

My stomach also doesn't seem to like me today, but I think I know the reason for that one - yesterday I got ahold of some delicious bagels and discovered that I have a liking for strawberry cream cheese. Because of my funky sleep schedule, the only food I ended up eating were bagels - one with butter, two with cream cheese, and one plain. I don't think my stomach liked that very much, especially since I globbed it on. x__X I had an apple this morning, which I think helped, but it still feels a little yucky. So I'm gonna flush it out with some McDonald's for lunch. XD WHY NOT EH

Other than that, things are going pretty nicely on my endOH SWEET JESUS I HAVE JURY TOMORROW, WHAT WAS I THINKING

OH LAWD D: D: D:

So yeah gonna drown my sorrows in fast food and Animamundi

Speaking of Animamundi, I finally had some dreams relating to it the other night. X3 (I'm absorbed enough in it, I'd better dream about it!) The first dream was very short and very vague. A man who may or may not have been Georik (the main character) showed up and begrudgingly engaged in what I assume were yaoilicious acts with some other guy (possibly Bruno, the token creepster). But it was so hard to remember that I'm not even sure of that ;_;

The next one, a few nights later, was almost a stress-dream in that it had that strung-out, repetitive feel to it. I was editing pages of Animamundi's HTML in Notepad, just like I've been doing in real life. And that was it. It was very mundane. XD Copy-paste-copy-paste-find-and-replace. Wheeee.

So I'm off to do just that!! Yaaay :D Peace out.

My great Aunt Claire died last night. A year to the day my grandmother (her sister) died. I can't help but think that they're all together now, somewhere. Mimi, Grandma, and Claire. Free of the ravages of time and cancer they will live forever in our hearts and minds.

...And, slowly but surely, things are winding down. My caffeine/lack-of-sleep high has worn off and I'm left with the same stresses I had beforehand, minus one. As can be expected, I've been pretty much fused to my iPod these last few days to deal with it.

I presented my Thriller animation to my Creativity class today. Fuck that class and fuck it hard, man. It's a mix of being extremely easy and extremely HARD with way too much focus on fucking extracurricular activities. But I'm getting off-topic. Anyway, I presented. And I did okay, even though I was totally unprepared - I kind of rambled on about inspiration for a minute or two before just showing the damn thing and getting it over with. XD Thankfully people seemed to like it (including this one guy who's a professional musician and wanted me to hear his music on Facebook. :D Yay male attention awesoooome). The teacher also really liked it, so... hooray for people liking shit I think sucks!! XD'''

Srsly. If I ever have to do a big project like this again, it'll be a drawing or something. I love animations, but I don't love MAKING them. I'll stick to my strengths. And I still have to fill my other five extracurricular activities... DX Nnnnot happening. Sorry. I'm getting to the point where I'm having to knuckle down and say "no that's not going to get done and I'll accept the consequences." Had to do that with a paper for Psychology today too - I forgot about it until right before class. I was just too busy working on that fucking animation for Creativity class. I'll see if she'll accept it a little late.

At least that's done, and now the only big project I have to worry about is jury for viola. 8< I don't wanna play in front of the professional musiciaaans...!!! *scaredface* I've been too worried about my Creativity project and jury to even think about finals!! Ahh!!!

Can I go home yet?? :P

Oh! And tonight's the meeting where I get to find out if I'm still gonna be roommates with Esther next semester. *crosses fingers!!* I've got a plan: if she moves out, awesomesauce. If she doesn't say anything, I'm going to request a single. If I can't get that, then I'll request a move to Shriwise apartments with Wendey. Only if those fail will I stick it out where I am (or with a new roommate, if they saddle me with that). Fuck my roommate. Seriously. She smells terrible and talks about me behind my back and is completely disrespectful to me. I am never having a roommate I don't know beforehand again, and ESPECIALLY not an international student. I'm sure most of them are really nice, but consider my experience soured.

It could be worse... but it could also be better. I'd like to take a step towards better.

Anyway, all my bitching aside, today was great! I woke up at 6:23 of my own volition. o__o Yeah I don't even know. I also had the urge to read some of Paradise Lost, but I didn't get very far in. XD''' So I went back to some of my old Satanism sites instead and did a little reading-up. It was a refreshing little semi-spiritual experience. ^^ Afterwards I got breakfast, and MOM SENT ME A CARE PACKAGE!! Or rather, she ordered me one. Good enough. XD It was full of FOOD and a little satchel of teas, coffees, and cocoa, and it came with a little thermos and a bunch of fruit! It was adorable. I need to call her and thank her muchly.

So yeah. On that note, what does everyone want for Christmas?? (Gov that includes you too. If you don't want a physical present I'll draw you something :D ) I need to make a list too... hmm.

Yup. We're supposed to get a lot XD
Anyways. I've been studying for more tests as usual. I took my lab one yesterday and they haven't got back to us with that yet. I also have lecture left to go next week and the practical one tomorrow. They sure do like tests in HB O:
I'm also applying to be an RA next year :) I think that would be a good experience. I really like living in the residence halls here and I think I'd be pretty good at helping people that live in them. It also gives you a big discount towards your room and board and looks pretty awesome on applications, which is always a plus.
So yeah. Basically I'm pretty excited for break. I really want to come home and just chill out for a while and see you all :D I need some de-stress time, it's been one hell of an ass kicking semester. Easily the hardest I've ever had in the history of my scholastic career. But I've learned a lot from it, so it's been worthwhile at least (why is it that you never seem to learn as much from something easy?).
Days left: 8

'Cause this is Thrillerrrrr

Thriller night

And nothin's gonna save you from the beast about to strike

...Especially if that beast is hunger. NEED TO EAT AND SLEEP NOW BYE